A Smile With No Reason

It all began when i was sitting down trying to revise, I had a smile on my face and i didn't realize i have been smiling on my own for the past 1 hour and also staring at my study slides. When i began to realize i was smiling, i keep on thinking why the heck am i smiling when i'm suppose to be studying. It is then i realize i was thinking of you. Yes, i know that you are no longer single and available but yet i still think of you. It's not illegal to think of anyone even if they are no longer single and available. My mind kept on telling me not to think. Yet, i still ignore those warnings.

Few months back, I had a girl who is good at everything, not to say very good though, and i myself is an average looknig guy. We had wonderful times together. i treated her well from trying please her when she's feeling down or feeling angry and to try to fit time to be with her even when i'm busy. Everyone thought that we will last forever but then we didn't make it through.

The last 3 weeks of our relationship ended in me getting a deep scar that is etched within my heart, i found out that she was cheating on me by going out with another guy who is very good looking, they were seen holding hands and hugging by a few friends of mine. I confronted her and she deny everything saying it was all lies.

I forgave her. I called her out one night but she say she's not feeling well. Hearing this i would say 'Do you want me to come over?', as she stays alone in a rented room. She's away from her hometown to study. She say she will be fine and she wants to rest. I defied what she said and went to her house. When i reached, she's not in her room so i asked her housemates and they say she went out to the mall. So i set out to the mall, believe it or not, once i step into the mall, i saw her with my very own eyes, very healthy and holding hands with another guy.

I didn't confront her this time, instead, feeling down i went for drinks with friends and told them what i saw. Everyone who knew me and her will know that i treated her well though we had small arguments once in a while. My friends advised me to let go. I went home that night and go to bed.

The very next morning i woke up and went to college like normal,I will fetch her to college every morning, on that morning she treated me unusually well. She gave me a morning kiss and hug when she saw me. During lunch she waited for me instead of me wait on which i usually wait for her. But then, on our journey back from the college in the evening i told her this will be the last time we will have such journey and also the end of our relationship. She broke out and asked me why, i didn't mention anything about what i saw last night and i told her it's because of some personal reason. She wanted me to hug her and kiss her like i always do, but i didn't and just bade her good bye. Once i got away from her place, tears began rolling down my eyes, a girl cheated on me yet i pretend to end the relationship as if it's my fault.

I heard from her housemates she cried for a few nights because of me ending the relationship and that the guy she's seen holding hands with is a con man. She knew about it on the night i saw them holding hands and she stopped seeing him since then. But then it's too late to repent and i got on with my life albeit still hurt. And she finish her short course from the college and i never heard from her since except when a friend told me she's going with another guy.

P/S: this is a story that is not true. But it's also a lesson for guys and gals out there on a relationship, trust ur partners but not too much and find out more if there's any rumours and not make fast and harsh decision and you will end up like the guy and gal in the story. If the guy did not make such decision then he will still be happily with the girl and also if the girl isn't greedy for getting nice looking guy, she will not lose a caring guy.